12.31.2010

freebird

2010
What a year. It's been one of major growth for me and self responsibility has been the biggest one of all. I have made it a priority to truly understand who I am, and with that content with discontent. The URL for my blog is freebirdclaire.blogspot.com. Freebird, something that describes me well and the reasoning for my recent tattoo! It's a bit ironic I got it done today- 12/31/2010 new years eve. A permanent piece to represent the beautiful life I live. This year has been beyond words and brought so much peace to my heart. So here's what my tattoo means..
constantly moving, always looking for more, searching.
inability to stay grounded, obsession with change, happiest when in flight.
passionate about travel, changing lives and changing myself.
im a runner. im a gemini. im a freebird
perception is key.
we all have a path.
that path is up to you, be fearless, be loving, be free.
we love. we learn. we live

stoked for 2011. bringgg itttt.

12.25.2010

my best friend is engaged!

Talbert Middle School was the third middle school I found myself calling "my school". With my parents divorce I found myself changing schools 4 times in 3 years. Putting a kid through the horrors of changing schools was bad enough, changing middle schools multiple times, is basically child abuse. My first day at Talbert was like the rest. I was so anxious that I stayed near a bathroom incase vomiting was necessary and I didn't dare say a word to anyone increase I'd say something dumb. The second day of school Nancy and I met, and the rest is history. We were instantly friends, best friends. So much so that people thought we move to Huntington Beach together.  We were inseparable for the next two years, it was unusual if we weren't sleeping at one another house at least 3 nights a week. The nights we didn't wake up in the same house, we would talk on the phone in the morning before school and watch "Three's Company" together. Through the typical difficulties of our teen years, she made it doable, in fact amazing. I honestly couldn't imagine my life without her and I definitely wouldn't be the person I am today with out her, but it wasn't a cake walk to get here.

I moved to Oregon before my sophomore year of high school but nothing changed. I visited Orange County several times a year and cell phones allowed us to continue to know each others personal lives better then any one else. High school brought a whole knew level of insecurity and life lessons to be learned. Being 1,000 miles apart we managed to never lose the support and the love, through our first romantic relationships, the the introduction to drugs and alcohol, hating our parents and discovering our passions. I graduated and moved back to Huntington Beach and Nancy moved in with me. The awkward time of figuring out where to go next in life after high school. I decided on college, volunteering and travel, Nancy choose the path of family, church and a job. To say the least, this is when we started to conflict, our life paths didn't line up. Sadly enough, we struggled to stay as close as we were before. I judged her and she judged me. We both were on the paths that were meant for us, but both failed to understand that at our immature age.
Luckily we found our way back. 
I believe that this girl is so intertwined with who I am, that by denying her, is denying myself. Nancy and I are two very different people in our life's path, but not at all in what we value in ourselves and the people in our life. Over the past two years we have been able to mend our friendship. With communication, honesty, understanding and simply love, it's as though we didn't skip a beat. The fact of that we were able to see past our differences and continue to love each other through our pride, is something rare. Our friendships is something rare. She's my sister, she knows me better then anyone in the whole world. She's my rock, my strength and my best friend.


On the note, I am so proud, ecstatic and overjoyed to say..
MY BEST FRIEND IS ENGAGED!!!!! Ms. Nancy Tolman will now be Ms. Nancy Waldron. Mannnn we grew up! I love you Nancy Corraine.

12.23.2010

Christannukahkanza

I love SCRAP.
$5 for a stupid amount of paper, foil, postcards, twine, poems, national geographic's, cloth and my beloved calligraphy pen. So I made a holiday card for the Mayinger's           ------> 

This Christmas will be just like the other's, non-traditional and just my style. Christmas eve will be spent climbing with a jew followed by making gluten free baked goods. I'm crossing my fingers mom will commit to our plan of going to the mountain on Christmas day. In reality that what I think Jesus would want me to do on his birthday, enjoy nature. Last Christmas I was wearing shorts on the beach with an Australian family, the year before that I was at a Blazer game and the year before that I was on a plane to Germany. So I'd like to continue the random cycle as a result of the modern world of divorced parents. 

I hope everyone had/ has a good Christannukahkanza!!



12.21.2010

click

We all have those things that were made for us, a book, poem, painting, movie. Every time I watch Elizabethtown I smile, this is my movie, a story that speaks to me. A reflection of who I am, what I hope to be and simply a damn good story (emphasis on the simply). Not ironic that one of the main character's name is actually Claire, well her real name is Kristen Dunst, but its a movie comeeee onnn. We both enjoy..
making scrap books with a twist. cheese. letting people surprise us. airplanes. spontaneity. champagne. finding reason. talking too much. dancing. people. living in the moment. taking chances. music that sets the tone. quirks. andd taking mental photographs..
Now you now my secret, I actually do this. I take mental photographs of moments I never want to forget and as far as I know, no one has caught me. 

12.13.2010

that piece fits... and I didn't force it

I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be. Exactly.
Coming to this realization has put so much beauty back into my life.
Story of typical me, never being content. But right now..

I am.. content.

A sort of content where lessons are being learned,
 hurdles are being crossed and the acquirement 
of the abilities to keep up with this chaotic world. 
A sort of content where I'm allowing things 
to happen and letting go of the force fit.
A sort of content where the pressures are put on hold.
A sort of content where I'm crying one day 
and on cloud 9 the next.

I suppose you could say
I'm finally becoming content 
with myself and not searching
for the environment that 
I feel content.