12:02am

wow.
If someone would have told me a year ago, that I would be in this position, this SAME position, I wouldn't be impressed. And I'm definitely not, but at the same time, not surprised.
I'd like to think (like everyone else) that we grow up, move on, let go, learn, challenge ourselves, be torn down and be built back up. I'm grateful for all the good and even the bad that comes into my life, lessons have been learned, understanding has been brought and patience has been acquired. But one situation has replayed over and over like a not funny version of "Ground Hogs Day" and when Bill Murray finally gets "his way", it always starts over. I have honestly tried everything to make "my way", and I have even tried the less favorable way, because I just want to wake up and it be the day AFTER grounds hogs day. But it never does, the clock hits 12:01am and I wake up in my shitty hotel room and the snow is still on the ground.
He says the same thing, and so do I. But it doesn't matter because at 12:01am everything starts over, except I'm the only one that seems to really re-live it. Although I don't even care about the stupid ground hog anymore, I'm STILL waking up every day and every day is ground hogs day. I'm tried of hearing the same people say the same things, everything is static, wheres the movement? I've tried all the ways to make it through the day, ignored it, hated it, loved it, all for the clock to continue pass 12:01am, but it always restarts. How do I get to the next day? Hopefully Bill Murray and I will end up in the same boat, and I will finally get the "right" day, or maybe the ground hog will finally give up.