the exposition of selfishness

29 hours left in Portland and its always a bittersweet goodbye, you would think that I would by use to these goodbyes. I've done them a lot. Leaving for camp every summer, California and my handful of times galloping off into the world. I've been told lately that I'm an extremely selfish person, which is hard to dismiss in that I try to live a life that is anything but selfish. However I look around to what I'm leaving coming back to and couldn't disagree more.
I've worked extremely hard to create what I have and internally be where I am. I deserve all of it. Being emotionally, mentally and physically responsible can easily be perceived at "selfish" but in actuality you are the only person to report back to at the end of the day. You can't make everyone happy, but you can make yourself happy.

I found this leaf in the midst of packing. I had saved it from last Fall, and a symbol of the person who picked this leaf up off the ground close to a year ago. I look at this leaf and have no regrets. None.