when one door closes another opens..

Leaving to the airport on May 2nd my anxiety took over, I was actually leaving Portland and it finally became real. As soon as the plane left the ground the tears came, it was quite symbolic that when the plane fly past downtown, over Northeast Portland, Mt. Tabour, Southeast and knowing that Mt. Hood was visible on the other side of the plane. Every part of Portland that the plane pasted over flooded my mind with memories from the past three years at Portland State. I felt content with my experiences and lessons learned. I was happy the people I had in my life and I knew that they would be there when I return. The tears were mainly me letting go of the relationship that I was leaving behind that was truly the end. I stopped trying to make sense of something that was never going to make sense. My heart hurt for him one last time and as the plane got closer to the clouds and Portland began to fade, so did the emotions and I fell asleep. Waking up to the announcement that we were about to land in Long Beach felt empty. It wasn't until I saw my family and felt the warm air that I felt my choice was the right one.
My best friend since 8th grade, miss Nancy Tolman had a lot to do with my choice of leaving Portland during my last trip to Huntington Beach a month earlier. Her and I had a big talk during that time about all my worries and need for change after a night of drinking on Newport Beach. In our clothes from the night before, tights and all, sitting in the sand we cried and hugged. We went back to the same spot on May 4th and smiled in content. It was quite healing.
May 5th was the day Rena, Alli and I would reunite. My dad found a car for me to use for the summer, an old toyota, but a car is a car! He packed me a cooler of food and made me promise I would call every hour as I drove to Fresno. It's only a 4 hour drive, but I am a daddys girl, and he sure does worry. As i drove to Fresno, it made me happy to think of Rena headed to the same place on the plane. Our reunion was perfection and so will our summer :)