the L word

"I can't live without you"
"you're my better half"
"I'm lost with out you"
"you complete me"
"you're my everything"
"I love you more then more then life"

NOOOO. Stop it. Stop it right now. This is not genuine love.
Of course all people have different types of relationships with their boyfriend, husband or partner, but when this feelings of absolute devastation without this person, this is not genuine my friends. Its young, immature, inexperienced Hollywood style love. I've recently solidified this annoyance because of someone from my past and someone of my present, combined. These feelings can be a result of many things, but mainly insecurities, manipulation or false idols.

"you're my better half" / "you complete me"

Personally I have never been a half, and for the most part I love who I am. I have met people who satisfy a part of me, where with them in my life, I make more sense. But firstly, they are not the "better" part of it all, just a piece of many people in my life who together have help molded me into the person I am. Secondly, if you feel like youre only a half, then you should look inside to help that, not to someone else.

"You're my everything"

So many girls (and guys) do this. We should never look at anything as our "everything", not school, work, family, friends, clothes, alcohol, food etc. If our everything goes into one thing, we're lost. We lose identity, along with other important aspects of life.

"I'm lost with out you"

Well, you should probably find yourself, because I sure as hell don't want to get lost finding you either.

I am also a victim, I have never said anything above, but I have felt it. Most of us have gone through these early, young relationships and luckily, NO hopefully, we learn and we grow. I'm so grateful for someone who has shown me a genuine love and someone from my past to remind me, that I have grown and retired from an immature love. I use to think love had a sort of a blueprint. That you were suppose to feel a certain way, act a certain way and after the relationship is over, you're suppose to hurt a certain way. I'm usually not open about talking about love, at all, and hesitant to write about this. I'm a girl that doesn't like to feel vulnerable and even when I'm not at my strong point, I act like I'm not affected. I just felt a need to publicize this frustration.

At 23 years old you could say I'm young in the dating seen, but I feel ancient. It's ok not to be ready, but it feels damn good to know that I've retired from these outrageous way's living life. Thank you to those who have I learned from and I hope you thank yours as well, good or bad. We live, we learn and then we continue to love, with out a blue print.