6.26.2010

I could cry from how much I love you

soul mate- n. One of two persons compatible with each other in disposition, point of view, or sensitivity. a person with whom one has a strong affinity. Biology. the phylogenetic relationship between two organisms or groups of organisms resulting in a resemblance in general plan or structure, or in the essential structural parts. Chemistry. the force by which atoms are held together in chemical compounds.

I only knew what affinity meant from my biology classes, so I looked up and definition and decided to include the bio/chem version because we all know how much I love science and everything it stands for. Especially in this circumstance..
There are some things that I know will be a part of my life and somethings I get the feeling that wont. I never put to much thought into this until a friend of mine told me he gets the feeling that he won't live long, that he can't see his life past age 35. I get that. I don't see myself "settling down" any time soon, not even in the next 10 years, its not that I don't necessarily want that, I just don't see it. One thing I know is that certain people will be in my life for a long time. It's beyond straight up emotions, it's chemical, magical, unexplainable.

I know not a lot of people have experienced this, and I'm not even going to try to describe it. But I will say this... a soul mate is not limited to a boy and girl romantic relationship. I find purpose, truth, contentment, simplicity, beauty, focus when those atoms line up just right. A dose of Canada was just what I needed and always need and will forever have. I love it when life smacks you in the face and says "hey, you're blessed ok? Remember that. Stop being selfish and lead be example. You're better then this, more then this, wiser then this, be better".

My weekend was all about laughing and loving with my soul mates. Sunsets with the view of Vancouver, swimming in green pools of melted snow, acquiring the first summer tan (in Canada?), cheap wine with a hint of board games. Skating, bike riding, guitar playing, church going, gluten free cookie indulging bliss. Thank you America's hat for a good one. We shall play again.


sorry Rena.. I love showing you off: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4izUWRdrqs

6.21.2010

Sunriver 2010

Amazing weekend, with my amazing friends. A huge group of us rented a house for the weekend to embrace summer and celebrate 23 years of life in honor of Caitlin and Rylee. I'm blessed.

6.14.2010

Forever a college student

Hey, remember when facebook was only for college students, before your grandma could get one and not even community college student could have it, straight up university? I remember being STOKED that I could finally get rid of oh so uncool myspace and have facebook because I WAS A REAL UNIVERSITY STUDENT. I enjoy that I look back to my very first album on facebook being my first year at PSU, and 69 photo albums later I write this blog and realize facebook is the holder of my college experience.. I like that.
I choose PSU because I didn't want the typical state school, Greek life, where your school is your life. I wanted a more liberal school where I could meet people with similar interests to mine, that was in a city, but not like God forsaken So-Cal from where I was coming. I moved to Portland knowing one person, Misty who is ironically still conquering school with me. But now, after 4 years, I have created quite a life for myself. Joining student groups was the first thing I did, and one of the better choices I have made in my life thus far. We would register people to vote, educate people on climate change, go to leadership workshops and when we reached our goal we would get drunk and talk politics. Amazing.
Taking time off to travel was the best thing I could have done for myself for numerous reasons. But in the sense of school, I feel re-energized and decided I'm close to graduating, might as well. So nowwww my plan is to graduate Spring 2011 with a bachelors in social science and minor in photography,also all my nursing school pre-reqs in which I will then head to whatever nursing school wants me the following Fall. When my friends older then me started to graduate, I was like, wow college is coming to an end, then everyone my age graduated and NOW my younger friends and fellow 5 year seniors are graduated. I attended the graduation partys drank the champagne and I felt really old. Although I'm finishing last, I smile at my time at PSU, and the reflection process is in full swing..

Don't get me wrong, I definitely was educating myself on a mass amount of issues, but I was also taking part in the stupidity of a young college student. I lived in the dorms, I did kegs stands, I kissed boys I shouldn't have, I snuck into bars, I got drunk a lot and the result? I swam in fountains, snowboarded down stairs, built beer can towers in front of churches, yelled obscenities, trespassed, obtained un-necessary scars, carried to bed. I'm surprised I didn't die to be honest, one example being our famous yuka tradition in the Dorms at good ol West Hall. After finals every term we filled this FOUR tubs full of yuka which is 4 bottles of coconut vodka, 4 bottles of lime vodka, lemons and limes, ice and four bags of sugar. This event was usually held in my room or Laken's and we charged for anyone who wanted a straw. There was usually around 15 of us and on the count of three we surrounded the tubs, stuck our straw in and drank until it was gone. Stupid? yes. Regret it? not at all.
I write this now, because I realize college for me, is over in the sense of growing up. Generally starting a new level of school and finishing it whether it be middle school, high school or college, is always looked at as a new chapter in life. After that being a career, marriage, having children, etc. Although I won't have the piece of paper stating I put enough sweat and blood into college until next year, I'm absolutely, completely and totally beyond the sense of accomplishment with the past four years on the level of learning, the type you don't get from books.

Misty is one of my really good friends, we've been friends since we were 5! I don't get to see her that much because shes pre-med, but when finals are done we have our typical coffee at the usual spot, Park Cafe. When finals near, I start harassing her and get super excited, its like a sister relationship where I'm the annoying little sister who looks up to the older one and just wants to hang out all the time. haha. This time around of catching up Misty told me something that resulted in this blog. Misty is a mentor at PSU and has a class of freshman. After having those students for a whole year she asked them on the last day "how have you changed since your first day at PSU?" One girls response was "nothing has changed since the length of my hair, I date the same guy, live in the same place, have the same job and I go to the same school". WOW.

College is what you make it, change and growth only happens if you allow it to. Sure I could have stayed in my comfort zone at home and attended the nearest state school and kept my high school friends close but thats not what I wanted. I wanted to live on my own, new people, new city, new life, anything but comfort. It is hard for me to understand those who literally choose to forever stay in that comfort zone. Who don't utilize their time being young and something that offers endless amounts of ideas, knowledge, new people and beer.. haha. It's an incredible feeling working hard towards a GOAL, not just going to school to get the piece of paper, because going to college is what everyone else is doing.

Sacrificing your social life, drinking way to much caffefine, studying HARD, take the exam, rock it and walk out feeling exhausted but the sense of accomplishment is a bit addictive. I study about 30-40 hours a week, hence why I dont have a job. I get good grades and never let anything get in the way of that. I finished my last sequence of Ed's Anatomy and Physiology class, which I can't describe the pain of his class. Getting a B is like getting an A++ in any other class. I managed to be a part of a rad study group this term, its nice to have some moral support in the difficulty for studying for the exams. On Tuesday after our final, Ed even found his way to our campus bar and had a drink with us :)
We celebrated for real on Friday to the end of the term with a much needed night out , I love my science kids. Yes we took a "team photo".. world meet your future health care professionals..

I will be DONE with science after this summer.. finally!

6.11.2010

dailys with mike degrow


these daily's put a lil hop in my step

6.04.2010

gemini

My mom was that mom that threw the RAD themed birthdays. Ballerinas, jungle madness, cowgirls, luau and the infamous slumber party's, mine were kinda legendary. The handful of childhood friends that I do have, to this day pull out the ol "remember that one time at your birthday..". Not to mention I was the first to have a birthday party were we did the oh so scandalous "tping", but little did we know my mom had discussed it before hand with what ever boys house was the victim.
Well I missed those days.. and relived it this past weekend. BBQ, pinata, games,  party hats, bubbles, play-do and beer pong, oo that one doesn't fit. So just a few of my favorite people, low key and gangster status. I'm pretty blessed with the friends I have in Portland andddd all over the world. All of them so different and always interesting when I have a gathering like this because these people of all different backgrounds and interest, only come to together on these events. It makes me laugh that there's always a ton of introduction or "yea i met you at Claire's... last year". A few times a year I can drag my girls, snowboarding homies, my atheist best friend, homofied NYC boy, God's best friend, high school friends, blister loving rock climber, childhood friends, photo snappin nomad and fellow friends who frequent science classes.. allll together. All so different, all so great.

That variety of gifts was amazing. Everyone had gotten me something from a memory and certain thing the know about me, therefore all being so different.  On thought of this blog of birthday, I turn to recognition my wonderfully crazy zodiac sign of gemini. It makes sense that my key traits of being a gemini are change loving, people loving, freebird like tendency to have this variety in my life.

oh and happy belated birhday to RENA MURRAY. Not an accident that we were born one year and one day apart.

5.29.2010

welcoming beer back into my life

First drink in a month! And where more perfect then at the campus rail jam finals with the homies in VIP with free beer.. Mmmmm.


we did some work..


But stoked on life. Smug to the max. Birthday celebration today. Get it.

5.25.2010

early birthday present!

What did I get for my birthday?

THE WORLD.
If any of you know anything about me, I'm kinda obsessed with planet earth. #1 goal in life.. become an RN, travel with that and make my mark with those less fortunate with my health like skills. On that note, I've wanted a globe since forever, I can stare at one for hours. This globe idea goes along with my vision of my future library with a massive globe in the middle, mmmm knowledge. Nerd? Yes. Every time I see them in stores, they are some ridiculous price. I mentioned to Ben I found one in one of my favorite vintage shops (the kind we had in our elementary school class rooms).

welllll I got my beloved globe with a big red bow on it, thoughtful Benjamin bought me my desired gift. Thanks boyfriend!! YAY!! Birthday this year shall be grand. Celebrating with a theme of a "original birthday". Straight up party hats, pinta, balloons, cake, water balloon fight, pin the tail on the donkey, legit 7 year old birthday party. Who would have thought a birthday after 21 would be exciting? That's my style..

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Just wanted to say thanks to everyone who finds my blog to be something interesting! I hope you have found some inspiration or a giggle at least. I did start this blog to document my love and must for travel and now its turned into my monthly pondering which some of you have obviously found of some interest! Stay tuned..

on that note..
I want to express some things that I am inspired by. I'm inspired by vegetarians, car-less, organic filled kitchens, 10% of profit to charity kind of individuals. People with devotion. People that do something that is difficult but its worth it because they truly believe in what they are doing. Even things I don't necessarily relate to such as waiting until marraige or veganism, I respect the crap ot of those people. This is something I REALLY wish I was better at. I've done the same to some extent, boycotting exxon/mobil gas (which is a horrible company) but I have realized I've done this when the other option is just as easy. Although a mobil gas station is right here, I can drive down the street to a shell station and all is right in the world.
I rescently gave up alcohol for a month and that was HARD, but in the end the challenge was met and totally worth the accomplishment. I want to step it up, and sorting out how I can do so. In a prfect world I would buy strictly organic, drive a fuel efficent car, have an energy effiencent home, buy only sweat shop free clothing, donate 10% of my sallary to my faovirte charity and sooo much more. But what it comes down to it money. It's exspensive to live that lifestyle and as a college student, money is the last thing I have.
I think its the absolute duty to someone who CAN afford these things, to do so. It's not an excuse to say I can't afford to do these things, but it is to say I can't do anything. It's incredibly out of my charater to do things I do not support and yet I continue to do so. Being that it is the begining of the 23rd year of my life, I WILL make it an absolute goal to be more devoted to what I believe in.

5.21.2010

like mother like daughter

I've been suffering a mystery illness for a good month. Ughhh. I'm not a big fan of doctors because most of them treat the symptoms and not the cause, not to mention I'm one of the millions of American's without health care. With a combination of my general science/health knowledge and my hippie mother I try to overcome what most people go to the doctor for.

Being in bed all day today I was not ashamed at 22 years old that I needed my mommy, and I sought the mother bird. Mom picked me up, bought me some my favorite Thai soup, made me some of her special tea, fed me her hippie remedies, put on the reggae music and I'm feeling a bit better.



I sit here on Friday night, catching up on homework, since the past two days I was bed ridden, happy I'm feeling better and laughing at my current observation. Although, like every mother and daughter, my mom and I butt heads. But I can't deny the similarities of mommma trips and I, those main traits being our strong independence and love for solo time. She set her plans back a few hours to tend to me, which was to go to a concert with her boyfriend. He canceled and she doesn't bat an eye, and is out the door to go see Midnite. I love that.. and laugh because I would do that same.

Every guy I have dated, it is an absolute must that they understand my love for me time and my solo missions. Kinda funny my last blog was about me loving a solo Sunday night. It warms my heart to see some of the traits that make me who I am, in the person from where they came from.

xx freebird

5.17.2010

rainy spring night

Being a true Oregonian, I love the rain.

A week of sun finished off with a warm spring night of rain, amazing. Peppermint tea, Frank Sinatra, clean (not to mention adorable) apartment, homework/ studying done, spending time with yours truly, awwww yeahhuhhhh. Simple.. and on that note. Simple blog.

:)

5.08.2010

putting it in perspective

M.I.A, Born Free from ROMAIN-GAVRAS on Vimeo.



This video is extremely powerful. I love that artists are taking an initiative to bring humanitarian or politic issues to the table using pop culture and the media to do so. The video says to me that genocide IS STILL occurring all over the over, we are just blessed not to deal with it on the front foot. We don't have to worry about sleeping at night or getting coffee at the local cafe. M.I.A. does an amazing job using red-heads to show what it would be like and a comparison that hits home.

-educate yourself-

5.06.2010

lets change it up a bit

so this is how it went..
I've always been an all around active person especially with running. One of my goals is to run a marathon and now that I have a bit more structure in my life, training a bit harder and racking up the mileage has been easier to fit in my schedule, confused why I'm not burning off the "travel calories" as fast as I thought, my boyfriend brought up a good point..

Alcohol has a TON of calories, especially in my drink of choice, which happens to be darker beers. It's not like I get drunk all the time, but I do frequent happy hour, go out once or twice a weekend and do love a beer during studying to bite the edge. I'm happy with my weight for the most part, but then I actually put thought into giving up alcohol, I was shocked that I really didn't think I could do it. There's Ahmanis birthday this weekend with the beer Olympics, Cinco De Mayo, happy hour Wednesday with David, happy hour Sundays with Neil, going out on the weekends, Canada in two weeks, lifty beers at the mountain, after midterms beers.. shitttt. Alcohol really is in my everyday life. Oh about next month? "But Claire, there will ALWAYS be something" -Ben, hmm you're right. Next month is end of school partys, friend graduation partys, beginning of summer, sun river with the crew, Alli's visit, Rylee and Caitlin's birthday's WOW. so..



It's funny to think that I could EASILY not get drunk for a month, but giving up my mirror pond at happy hour or a glass of red with the girls, is a challenge. On that note I have officially hit my mid-twenties in alcohol maturity, HAH! It's good to know I'm past my earlier college days of getting wasted every night and using fake ID's to go out to the oh so "cool bars". I know I can have fun without alcohol, could do with out the extra calories, more cash in my pocket and I love a little challenge. So I'm not drinking for 30 days (until my birthday May 30th), which ironically is going to be themed like a child's birthday party.. haha. Bring it!

5.02.2010

wearing art

What is LOOKBOOK.nu?

LOOKBOOK.nu is an international social experiment in style. It was inspired by street fashion blogs like the Sartorialist as well as "What are you wearing today?" forum threads across the internet. LOOKBOOK.nu is an invite only community

Ms. Rena Murray "invited" me to lookbook and apparently I'm cool because this is an "invite only" site. But anyway, I don't post "looks" too often, but when I feel like I seceded at a descent outfit, this where I show them off.

So besides the "I'm kinda rad" factor of this whole thing, this site is even more rad and makes me use a lot of ".." because I feel awkward talking about myself in this kinda way. But it's honestly a bit more then that, fashion is definitely an art, expresses personality and character. Although fashion is put in the materialistic category, in our society clothes are necessary. So why not have fun with it, dressing to your personality doesnt have to be a materialistic, status conscious, surface objective. It can be accomplished on a budget, like myself and a key factor in what you are projecting to the world. Thrift stores, mom's closet, buffalo exchange and friends clothes exchanges are my favorite ways of updating my closet. I would post the hilarious video of the end of the summer clothes exchange with Rena and Alli, but RENA decides to delete video's and photo albums which sucks because shes the keeper of facebook memories, but anyway that clothes exchange was the best idea ever. I just get bored of my clothes and living with two other girls that were basically that same size as me and same taste in clothes trading was AWESOME. So check lookbook out!!


http://lookbook.nu/user/114163-Claire-T

4.28.2010

blog power

http://elysecanfield.com/states_html/roadtrip.html

So Elyse is a rad girl, she takes great photos and happen to go on a road trip a few years back around the western part of the states. Not only is this video/photo blog awesome, I had the honor of a shout out for my hospitality in Vegas, May 30th 2008 I turned 21 and had this lovely group crash on my floor. Quite the artistic one at that.. check em out..

elysecanifield.com
ethanvella.com
samkuhn.com

4.18.2010

word of the day: relish

rel·ish
–noun
1.liking or enjoyment of the taste of something.
2. pleasurable appreciation of anything; liking: He has no relish for obscene jokes.
3.Cookery.
a.something savory or appetizing added to a meal, as pickles or olives.
b.a sweet pickle made of various vegetables, usually chopped or minced.
c.an appetizer or hors d'oeuvre.
4.a pleasing or appetizing flavor.
5.a pleasing or enjoyable quality.
6.a taste or flavor.
7.a smack, trace, or touch of something.
–verb (used with object)
8.to take pleasure in; like; enjoy: I don't relish the long drive home.
9.to make pleasing to the taste.
10.to like the taste of.
–verb (used without object)
11.to have taste or flavor.
12.to be agreeable.
Use relish in a Sentence

—Antonyms
1, 2. distaste, disfavor.

this word is me, freebird, the simple things. I'm relishing in my gifted life, relishing in the life lessons I am being presented, oh and I happen to actually like relish, for that matter anything pickled is BOMB. pickles, pepperchinis, olives, and relish (which is pickled cucumber).
relishing..

DONE with round one of midterms. Relishing in my caffeine overdose, letting my brain come back down to reality and let the creative juices flow, and not the structual/ functional parts. Relishing in the feeling of working hard and finally, relaxation.


My boyfriend is rad. Plain and simple. I'm so not mush, and him of all people know that. I'm not one to say those lovey words. But none the less, I'm.. Stoked. Wow, ANYWAYS..
He can draw.. I can't.. so he draws me stuff..

nickname are cool, he calls me "Trips".
He happens to be Australian, when we go out, girls hit on him all the time and he leads them on. I think it's hilarious, because he's the most humble person I know. Yay. I relish in the fact that my boyfriend is way better then yours.

my little plants. Grow plants grow! Although its not cucmbers to make relish that I'm growing. I'm still growing something and growing something is so under-rated, its exciting to noticed something change and grow, a bit of symbolism here?


Wilahs gift: I nannied for three lovely girls while in Australia, the youngest gave me a "birthday" present before I left and said I had to wait until my birthday, well I opened it a bit early, and I LOVE IT. the innocence and beauty of a child moves me beyond words. I relish my drawing :)




life is neato

4.13.2010

Blue Like Jazz: The Movie

'Blue Like Jazz' The Movie - The Scanner - Patrol Magazine

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One of my favorite books of all time. I'm so pumped. But hopefully "the book was better then the movie" won't happen once again.

"The book was better the the movie" PRIME example:
-The time travelers wife
Such an amazing book, but the movie did a horrible job or showing Claire and Henrys extensive story, not to mention how much they didn't go into detail about this "disorder" and his daughter. Frickkkkk I was disappointed with that movie.

But anyways. SOOOO amped about this movie. Donald Miller is hysterical and I'm sure he'll make the producers keep his humor in the movie, not to mention his theory on God. Did I mention he is from Portland?? I'm freaking out. Can't wait.

4.12.2010

My humble abode

After almost a year of living out of a back pack, sleeping with 16 people in a room occupying a top bunk in a hostel or sharing living quarters with 7 people at one time (5 of them being guys who neglected the kitchen), I was so ready to have my own space again. No room mates even, just my own place. I manage to score a RAD old studio downtown on the park blocks and its freakin adorable. Other then the fact I hear hear the Jesus guy rant about all of us going to hell and no dishwasher, its perfect. After a few Ikea runs my place is tip top.

I love the rounded entry ways.


Where I lay my head, complete with boyfriends flag.


Running quite a bit lately, but nothing like some encouragement from Ben MacKinnon and our eXtreme fitness days. Having fun while working out? We know the secrets.


My travel photography, the blank one is my Thailand photo and is currently being printed.


bathroom





my view, I'm a fan


My kitchen :)


4.08.2010

pop culture

I have never been one of those people that are afraid to talk in front of people. So I tend to be one of those people in class that answers the discussion points professors make. I don’t necessarily do it because I’m really excited about that topic, more so because I feel bad that the professor gets crickets when he asks the class something he finds important. In every class there are those 3-5 people that generally talk a lot in class, and I am always one of those.
Well in this particular class I find myself actually talking because it’s interesting, who would have thought. I’m taking a University Studies class that actually doesn’t suck, called popular culture. Today we covered the youtube, facebook and how appropriate blogging worlds. Facebook particularly is truly our alter ego, we post photos that we want the world to see, status updates about how exciting our lives are and offering a little box were people can confirm whenever we are projecting. It’s a social networking, a new level of friendship and communication because talking in person nowadays is just to awkward right? haha.
This pop culture of social networking via the internet has some unbelievably good things coming from it. for starters.. the hug campaign. The hug campaign started with a man named Juan Mann, he had returned home after traveling and there was no one to greet him in the air port. While everyone else from his plane was showered with love he wrote "Free hugs" on a piece of cardboard and the rest is history. As most of you know he posted this on youtube and become famous overnight. I came in contact with one of these great people in Pikes Places in Seattle and one of my favorite photos of all times thanks to Micah Parson..


Something that really bothers me on the other hand is how popular culture doesn’t always coincide with what is being represented. My two PET PEEVES..
1. the word “gay”.
When someone says “that’s gay” they are intending that thing is stupid, dumb, lame etc, intending that gay people are anyone of those words. I often call people out on it when they use that word in that context. “Really, you think raised trucks are gay?” hmmm I don’t see anything homosexual about that, then people start to think a bit on what they are actually saying. Not only do I support gay rights in every sense, but there are a lot of people I care about in my life that happen to be gay. So please, think before popular culture overtakes your vocabulary
2. The representation of the peace sign
I know two people in this world (proud shout out to Allison Suvanto and Zach Stutzman) that wear peace sign paraphernalia and truly fit the meaning (as much as humans can). I once witnessed a girl with a peace sign necklace on, order a latte at starbucks, only to scream at the batista that her latte clearly had milk in it as opposed to soy. Is this a sign of peace?

On conclusion, I ask to think a bit before you take up a trend.

3.31.2010

Michael freakkinn Franti


On Tuesday night I went to my 5th Michael Franti and Spearhead concert with tickets graciously provided by my mom. I've been in love with him and his music for a long time, he's a reggae/ rock mix and his lyrics are beautiful. He's an incredible entertainer and by far my favorite to see live. The concert started out amazing as usual and for his last song he asked all the kids to come up on stage, my mom and I rushed to the front only for to security to stop us, but I yelled, "I'm a kid, thats my MOM!" and pointed to the lady next to me. We were let on stage and next thing I knew I was dancing next to Michael Franti himself singing "I got love for you". It was amazing, the hott guitarist kept walking by and squeezing my shoulder, my "you're a free card" look wasn't acknowledged. Damn.
After Michael finished singing I told him how great his music was and blah blah blah using very big Alli Suvanto arms to show how great he was (she talks very ascetically with her arms) and he totally gave me a hug, NOT initiated by me. His sweat leaving behind my whole right side of my body as I said more and more compliments and then said "you know who got my stoked on your music? my mom" He said I know I recognize her, you have a rad mom, and gave me his guitar pick. AHHHHHHH! My karma is insane as of lately!! By the way that was my moms 15th MF concert. Insane.